Yesterday I went to the pharmacy to pick up some muscle relaxants.  My body has not felt the same since the day of my ultrasound and mammogram over a week ago.   My body aches; my back and shoulder are sore and my chest is so tight.  I feel like my heart hurts and my lungs hurt.  I’m scared and worried that there is something else wrong but L and G assure me that it’s just the anxiety.  G reminds me that I already have 1 cancer that I can’t be selfish and claim another.

At Shoppers Drug Mart I asked the pharmacist about the muscle relaxants.   She inquired about my symptoms and I explained to her that I was just very sore. She asked why so I came right out with it.  I told her I just got diagnosed with breast cancer.  She was shocked but recovered quickly and explained which ones would be good and recommended a heating blanket.  She told me I shouldn’t take them more than a week.  I know this but bought the big bottle, just in-case.

It felt good to say it to a stranger.  I’m not going to play the cancer card very often but seriously if I have it I suppose it’s mine to use.   G say’s that is only in play for a limited time, bless him, so use it while I can.